Year in review - how my life changed in 2018.
I have recently posted on my Instagram profile a post: "One year from now you may not recognise me. All that happened this year has changed me so much and transformed me into a new person. I have learned valuable life lessons. I no longer force things. I've faced my shadows. I have forgiven. I've realised how strong I am, and witnessed my weaknesses. I have outgrown my old self." That is exactly how I feel about the year 2018. In this post, as per our tradition on the blog, I will share with you my year in review and life lessons learned.
vision board moments - vacation in amalfi coast - positano
At the end of June this year I traveled with my dear soul friend Sandra to Italy (Positano - Amalfi Coast) which was the dream vacation on my vision board. My dream came true and I was literally living the pictures pinned on my vision board! The Universe fulfilled this wish in a grand way to me - not only did I travel to Positano - Amalfi Coast, but I also had a chance tt spend the weekend in beautiful Abruzzo with breathtaking views and heart warming people, which was a surprise addition to the trip by my dear soul friend Sandra. We also visited ancient Pompeii city ruins where we had very profound moments of contemplating on life and death, and the shocking and surprising similarities of the history back then (over 2500 years ago) and the present of today's day and age. We also visited the Greek temple remains in Paestum, which was such a soul fulfilling experience. I knew while I was walking on that sacred ground that I will write something related to Greek Goddess afterwards, as I was so much moved and inspired, and I felt some strange feeling of deep self discovery and deep connection to that place, like it was where I belong. Later on in August I wrote the blog post inspired by Goddess Athena Self Empowerment - How To overcome Self Doubt, and also created a short online course "Awaken The Athena In You". This trip to Italy was incredible and I wrote in detail about the experience in my previous blog post Six Life Lessons I've Learned On Vacation To Italy - Positano.
new beginning after loss and tragedy (stepfather)
One of the most incredible things that has happened this year was related to my family. Five years ago my father suddenly died of illness, leaving us in deep grief. We have been missing him, remembering him, and cherishing the memories of the time spent together ever since. After he died, my mom was grieving so much that she almost lost a desire to live. She was extremely sad, and me and my sister were very much concerned about her. In the meantime she joined an NGO and she started getting back some zest for life, as she had something she was occupied with and lot of traveling events. It has been very difficult for her, especially since I also not long after father's death moved to India. Last year we reunited after three years of being apart, and we've spent beautiful six months together, even went on vacation - that was my mom's first vacation since father died. This year there have been some exciting news and changes - my mom has fallen in love again and me and my sister got a carrying stepfather! Our father will be in our hearts forever and cannot be replaced, but we both were missing a fatherly figure in our life, and both are happy that there is someone taking up that role now, and that our mom will not be all alone once my sister also leaves home as she will again have a life partner. It has been very hard time for all of us, but now five years afterwards it feels like Sun is shining again.
Sometimes in our life it can feel like all is lost, there is no hope, and that Sun will never rise again. But, know and trust that no matter how much you've been trough, there is hope, all is not lost, and the future can be different! Give yourself the time to heal, and once the wound does heal, be willing to embrace the new beginning and life will give you the new chance!
professional transformation + clarity about my niche + vedic astrology
In the beginning of the year I had my dream came true to be coached by amazing money mindset coach, who is my role model I whom I admire a lot. With the inner self discovery work she has given, I have discovered some residual limiting beliefs (especially in the area of money). It was kind of like: "I am a life coach, I've been on a spiritual and self development journey for a decade, and I have (still!) these limiting beliefs!?! Sh*t!" :-)) Self development journey is a really a life long journey and personal growth. Later on, I have been doing a lot of healing and subconscious work to replace these limiting beliefs with empowering ones, which has been a true emotional rollercoaster, as whatever happened during and after the process had me face my "shadows" and my biggest fears. Upon that, I have had almost a near-death experience in the first week of June! After my trips to Netherlands and Italy, I finally had the time to do some deep inner work and self reflection and contemplate on everything deeply. That's when I released that I have had huge inner transformation - I have changed! I have become a different person. Along with that my desires have changed, and the vision for my life has changed. I literally recreated my vision board in July. I love to learn about astrology and the mysteries of life, but after all that has happened, especially that frightening experience in the first of June, I have felt even more drawn towards the occult world.
2018. year in review - my transformation journey
In January this year I was giving self empowerment workshops to female managers in Fortune 500 companies in Delhi, motivational speeches on building confidence, and Emotional Intelligence workshops to kids in schools, with my colleague, Lata. In February I visited beautiful Rastriya Dalit Park and Lotus Temple in New Delhi, and enjoyed wonderful meals in my favourite cafes and luxurious corporate meetings and lunches in five star hotels. It was in the beginning of the year itself when I was coaching the female managers and at the same time doing 1 on 1 life coaching via Skype with women who were struggling with self worth, body shame (woman suffering from anorexia and body image issues), women in toxic relationships, women struggling with sexual shame, women struggling with being more feminine while holding masculine power positions in corporate world... that I truly realised how much self empowerment and self worth coaching is really needed for women. It was breaking my heart seeing super successful women who have been working so hard and achieved so much struggling with import syndrome or feeling unworthy. It was breaking my heart seeing how many women are struggling with body shame and self confidence, even to the point that they would starve themselves to anorexia or settling to be in very toxic relationships. It was then that something moved deep inside of me and I felt deep calling to make this my coaching niche. If you are following me for a long time, you could notice that topics on this blog have changed since February - there have been many blog posts on self love, self confidence, self worth, self empowerment... That's where the idea for my Self Love & Feminine Confidence Online Course stemmed from.
In March and April I enjoyed doing workshops on emotional intelligence and motivational speeches for kids in various schools in Delhi and Haryana state. I visited some really beautiful places, like Birla Temple, Royal Mughal Gardens, and had a jeep safari as well! Along with beautiful birds, I had a blessing to see during the safari the lotus flowers live for the first time! You may be remembering that last year I have realised that I was so emerged in my work and everything what was happening over the past years, that even while living in Delhi for three years, I have visited very few places. Delhi is the ancient Indian capital, which was demolished and rebuilt seven times, and it is very rich in history and beautiful monuments, but I was not exploring them and enjoying all the architectural treasures. Last year in October I have set a goal to visit ALL the beautiful places in Delhi which I have not seen. If you follow me on Instagram, you could have seen what the beauty I was missing to explore before! The lesson I've learned is that we so much long to travel and seek the "new" while sometimes we forget to enjoy, explore, and appreciate what we already have around! We can so much consumed with work, to-do list, grind of life... that we forget to actually enjoy our life. Exploring the place where we live in does not take much money, time, or effort, like traveling to foreign countries, just the willpower, decision, and some planing!
I also had the privilege, blessing, and enough money to afford to be coached by self love and money mindset coach that I truly admired - it was my dream to be coached by her which came true this year! Although I am a coach myself, I work with coaches as well, and have had a mentor coach since the day one that I got my life coaching certification, as I love to practice what I preach, and because coaching self has it's limitations since one cannot get out from it's own head and be fully objective. Also, learning from the best coaches in the industry helps me to grow as a coach and show up as a better life coach to my clients!
In May I was doing a lot of self reflection, meditation, chakra healing, self discovery work... suggested by my own coach. I have gone trough some deep inner transformation, faced my shadows and fears I was not aware existed, and then worked on healing them and replacing limiting beliefs with empowering beliefs. It is incredible how personal growth journey is never ending process. It is truly personal growth - you grow and evolve over time, there is no "graduation time" or "I am perfect now" moment. It is life long learning process. It has been very deep process, painful, tough, emotional, and scary. But after it was all over, I have had such a powerful inner transformation and healing. I am very grateful for that inner shift as I have evolved A LOT as a person, human being, soul, and as a life coach for my clients.
I visited in May one of the most beautiful places in New Delhi, Qutub Minar, and I was honoured to give a powerful Emotional Intelligence Coaching workshop with my dear colleague Lata Dasila Singh to a group of successful business owners. I have also become a Master Life Coach with EQ Maraviglia Academy, and I've been coaching and mentoring new Emotional intelligence coaches certified by the Academy since. I was also enjoying daily swimming in our private pool in my garden, as weather is very hot at this time in Delhi. In May I wrote a blog post You Are Worthy: Five Tips To Increase Your Self Worth, which went viral, becoming the most popular, shared, and read post on the blog this year! I believe it had such a deep effect on people because I was writing it in the midst of my own inner transformation and healing while facing my own shadows, so my words and message reflected it in the post. In the end of the May I was buying gifts and preparing and packing for my three months trip to Europe.
On the 2nd June I flew from Delhi to Bosnia and Herzegovina. On my long traveling journey at one moment I started choking and had a-near-death-experience. I was really feeling and thinking that I am going to die. While bearing the most terrible chest pain, throat contraction, and worst headache in my life, in those minutes I had the chance to reflect back on my life, which I thought was end-ing. I remember thinking and feeling that if I will not live any longer I would still leave a beautiful legacy behind me: around 500 helpful articles, this blog, and my self development magazine which I co-founded in my native language, my vegetarian blog... those would be my legacy which would remain after me and which would continue to make a positive difference and impact in the world. I reflected on people I who would be missing me. I reflected back on everything I that still wanted to do, see, explore, learn, contribute to the world... It was a terrifying experience but it was also very powerful. I had severe physical pain afterwards, and I was literally scared to death. That period was the worst, most traumatic, and the scariest in my entire life, but if I look back, I am grateful today that I have gone trough it. It took me a week to get back to a "normal" state of mind. I switched myself of literally from social and almost everyone and anything, as I needed the time to restore and replenish. I also did some deep self reflection, on what were my true desires, priorities, things I truly want to do and achieve, and who are the people I really want to share my precious time with. Once again, life has thought me how unpredictable and fragile it is. How grateful we should be that we woke up every day, and that we have lived another day. How precious our time on this Earth plane is and that we need to spend it wisely and joyfully as much as we can.
Celebrate life every single day. There are many people who did not wake up today. You did. You are blessed. Decide to make the best out of today. Do something to remember this day for. Do something that will make other people people day better. Laugh. Savour the moment. Continuous moments of joy are the building block of emotional state defined as happiness.
If you follow me for a while you know that I am teaching and preaching all the time about setting healthy boundaries in relationships, self care, self love, and emotional wellbeing, but after this experience in the first week of June I have become even more strict when it comes to setting my own boundaries and with whom I am spending my precious time with. I have also cleared my life from many things I was doing "for the marketing sake", and decided I will be writing articles only for my own magazine, and few platforms that I truly resonate with. I got clear what truly matters to me, and I totally redesigned my vision board. I also have become interested and dived even more deeper in learning about mysteries of life, astrology, and occult after this experience. The self discovery and healing work that I have done along with the near death experience I've had have helped me to peel of another layer of my ego and get crystal clear on my true desires and priorities in life.
Spending a week afterwards with my life coaching mentor and now soul friend Vanja Beukelman Pavlovic in beautiful Netherlands has helped me a lot to recover. I gave a very interesting workshop in Netherlands on Vedic Astrology basics for the first time in Rotterdam and participants loved it. They all were so much in awe and wanted to learn more on (what they call it) "Indian Horoscope" :-)). I enjoyed soul fulfilling conversations and exchanging wisdom nudges with my mentor Vanja, shopping in HEMA, and of course, delicious Dutch food. I was indulging so much in their wonderful dark bread, cheese, apple tarts, carrot and butter cakes... that I gained 7 kg of weight! But, I've got no regrets! :-))
Vanja published a printed version of her book "Život" in our native and in Dutch language this year! I am so proud of her! Two decades ago she came to Netherlands as a refugee, with neither of her two University diplomas recognised by Dutch law. She did not want to live from charity or social help, so she accepted to work as a cleaner, until joining her newly wed husband to run a business. After helping her husband to build a successful business, she became a life coach and cognitive therapist, Croatian language teacher at Dutch Business Academy, the host of successful talk show (in language which is not her native!), and she has also published her book this year! I feel really blessed to have her to guide and mentor me!
In the end of June I have traveled to my vision board dream destination: Amalfi Coast - Positano with my dear friend Sandra. I wrote in detail about our trip and life lessons learned in Italy in one of my previous blog posts - 6 Life Lessons I've Learned On Vacation In Positano Italy.
After returning from Italy, I spent a lot of beautiful bonding time with my little sister, celebrated my birthday, and went with my my sister and mom on vacation to Croatia. I was able to enjoy daily swims and beach relaxing time, working in cafes on the beach on my laptop, read good books, drink good wine, and have wonderful Italian pasta. I recharged fully on this vacation and got so much creative inspiration for creating content for the blog and booking new life coaching clients.
In August, after returning from our vacation in Croatia, I was spending time visiting beautiful places near by my home town with my mom and sister, and bonding with my stepfather to be. I have spent a beautiful time with my good friends as well, which I am missing a lot while in India. I created a lot of beautiful content for the blog, social media, and even a short online course.
In September, I flew back to India, where new built temple in my garden was "waiting for me". I feel so blessed that now, along with the beautiful palm tree garden, gym, and the pool, I've got a temple as well in front of my apartment. It took me a while to unpack, recover from jet lag, and get back into my normal daily routine. I visited Goddess Durga temple, enjoyed delicious vegetarian food in my favourite cafes and restaurants in Delhi, which I was missing a ton while in Europe (where is much more difficult to be vegetarian :-)) My colleagues who co-founded the self development magazine for women in my native language with me decided to leave the magazine, so I took over the entire project on myself. That gave me a lot of responsibility but also the freedom to do a complete makeover, redesign, restructure... of the magazine and make it just like I wanted and imagined it to be all these years! Now we are publishing solely articles on spirituality, tantric sexuality, feminine energy, Vedic Astrology, Positive Psychology, occult... Entire month was engaged in a lot of creative work, but the hard work paid of in a form of my long years dream for the magazine coming to reality. In October I was mentoring coaches from MEQ Academy, along with doing my regular life coaching work, and I gave my first online Master Life Coaching webinar with my dear colleague Lata Dasila Singh. I visited the Safdarjung Tomb. I wrote a blog post on the topic of dealing with anger, which got a lot of praise and attention, comments, shares, reads... by both women and men in my community! I feel so grateful that my words and advice had such a powerful impact on people who have read it.
In November I was giving workshops on Emotional intelligence wit my dear college Lata, celebrating all the festivals, and working on the new, secret, coaching project, and I was also very passionately studying Vedic Astrology and occult mysteries of life. I have learned so much from my astrology teacher and I am really excited even by a thought of what all I will learn in the upcoming lessons in the future! I visited beautiful Lodhi Gardens and Agresen Ki Baoli in New Delhi.
At the end of November I visited the city of Lucknow. Wonderful trip to Lucknow gave me so much creative ideas and energy boost to create a lot of content for you guys in December to help you to set and achieve your New Year goals. From the luxurious business class flight delight to wonderful sightseeing and spending time with heart centred people over there, enjoying delicious vegetarian food in the lounge club with most amazing cocktails and lounge-tech-chill music (my favourite!), and most delicious aloo-paratha for breakfast… I will cherish the memories of this trip for a long time to come.
Traveling is indeed food for the soul, exploration ground for the mind, expansion for the heart, shower for the boredom, and ticket for adventures.
December month was all about intense learning of Vedic Astrology Academy modules, coaching calls, and writing goals setting post and year in review blog post for all of you in my online community. You know I love to be a Christmas Santa and offer the content of good value at this time of the year to help you with setting your goals and getting the clarity what is it that you want you want to change and achieve in the year ahead. It is the season of giving, and that is my way of making the positive contribution to the world. I visited beautiful Red Fort, enjoyed seeing decorated palm trees and Christmas tress, here in Delhi and the indulging in traditional Christmas plum cake. :)). I have had the most wonderful Christmas lunch with my BFF Radhika in our favourite The Readers Cafe. Happiness is... having a vegetarian Italian Christmas lunch with someone you have soul level connection with. As you know if you have read my previous blog post How To Set New Year Goals You WILL Achieve, I like to spend the end of December and the New Year's Eve in reflecting on the year behind and setting goals for the upcoming year.
new year wishes...
As you could read previously, I have re-created my vision board for 2018. and got more clear on my niche and my career vision, also the type of content I want to create. As I moved from success and personal growth coaching more towards to self worth and confidence niche I have decided not to write the articles that are not related with these topics as well not to pitch the article to Forbes magazine, which was my goal this time last year. Also, I have replaced my goal of traveling to Bali with pilgrimage to Rameshwaram.
Life changes and so do we in a year. We should follow our own heart first and foremost and if we realise in the middle of the year that the goal we wanted is not anymore what we truly wanted we should be flexible and self-loving enough to let go of it.
I would like to travel to Bali in the future, but at the moment my desire to go to a pilgrimage is stronger and that will be my desire/goal/intention for the 2019. I want to visit my family in Bosnia in summer, have a beach side luxurious holiday with my sister, coach more new coaches certified by Meraviglia EQ Academy where I'm a Master Coach, continue giving Emotional Intelligence workshops here in Delhi, and work with more dream coaching clients like I had the honour, grace, and privilege this year. I also want to start giving astrology consultations as a regular service and start publishing YouTube videos on the topic of astrology and occult once I complete the Vedic Astrology Academy. I do not know once I do if I will continue offering my life coaching program via Skype in the same form that it is now - six months of intense self growth and life changing transformation - or I will slowly make the full transition to astrology, or merge the two. For now, I have decided to follow my heart and see what 2019. will have in the store for me. Therefor, if you want(ed) to work with me or considering hiring a life coach, now is the time to make an action step and book free 30-min discovery call with me via Skype, as like I said, I do not know by the end of next year if my life coaching program will be available in this form or not. If you want to set your own goals for 2019. I wrote a blog post that can help you with that - click here to read How To Set New Year Goals You WILL Achieve.